Today I sit in Starbucks again.
You see, this is where I come when I need to vacate the house.
I sit here today and take in the chatter again.
I ordered a Passion Tea because I am celebrating summer.
A man wearing an extremely large cowboy hat and dress suit sits across from me.
I wonder why he chose that outfit today.
Another mom and daughter are sitting beside me, She is extremely happy that SCHOOL is out!
So am I. {and I told her too}

Today I have had an epiphany.
It is time for me to work on me.
To search my heart and my soul.
Find out God's plan for me.

That means, don't focus on others.
Their problems, their wants, their expectations.
Nope. Its all about me.

So, I started with a good cleansing.
I am cleaning out my heart... and my closets and kitchen cabinets.
I am figuring out that GOD loves me for me.
He has a plan for MY life.
and it is GOOD.
He wants the best for me.
He wants me to be happy and fulfilled.
He wants to control the outcomes and the future.
So, I gave it to him.
Just like that.

He tells me that it will be ok.
I trust him.
I am still fearful, but I hope that maybe my fear will begin to subside eventually.
Maybe the Peace I am looking for will just take some time.
But I am willing to wait...